Hey, I could've sworn I friggin' made a journal when I was on my Utah trip. The wifi must've crashed on me, and it never posted. Ugh ah well. And I didn't notice till now, because well...I'm not really doing art or writing at the moment. I sort of hit a wall (and hard) with my drawing, and just need a break for awhile. I'll pick it up one day, and hopefully work up a fan base for it too. As for writing...well that's sort of what I came online to do.
Let's start with the fact that for a year and a half now, I haven't really had a single story idea. Okay yeah there was the Doppelganger story, but I really didn't know what I wanted the plot and premise of that story to be when I started it, and as I wrote, I realized there really was no story there. There was the beginnings of a story, but it needed more construction first. So I dropped it. No problem, I drop story ideas ALL the time. The only issue here, is my problem I face at this very moment. I feel the muse to write and work on a story, and hey, maybe actually MAKE something out of it and get past the first few chapters. But here's where I run into a type of writer's block I've never hit before. I have no ideas whatsoever. Normally I have like a gazillion ideas, but never really feel the muse to develop them. I think I'd waaay rather have that block and the block I have now...
Now I know what you're thinking. North, why didn't you right down those ideas when you had then?! Well I did. But after having the ideas years ago, they don't really excite me anymore, and a lot of them are really lame ideas.
Anyway, tonight I'm lying in bed thinking to myself, and the urge to write comes over me, but no stories. I'm concentrating harder and harder than I've ever had to to make an idea spark. This is sort of keeping me awake. That's why I turned to dA. I just wanted to vent out my anger about all this :T
As for uploading art anytime soon, I have no friggin' idea. Maybe I'll get back into drawing? I also was looking into taking up fractal art perhaps? I still wanna finish those couple of t-shirt design ideas? I'm taking a photography class in school this year? Hell, maybe I'll be able to write again soon? All questions I can't answer. Well the fractal art and t-shirt designs and perhaps even the drawing, are gonna wait till I get a new computer, since I want to get some new programs, but want to wait for a new laptop. My goal at this point is to get a new laptop in the winter, so yeah. That's my legitimate "excuse" for not getting artsy lately. Oh hum bumba, my creative life is a mess at the moment.
On another note, I still come on dA daily to talk with my friends, so feel free to drop me a PM, even though I ignore my notifications and notes and comments, since I'm ashamed of my dAness at the time being. D:
Listening to: Born For This - Paramore
Watching: You o.o Dun dun dun...
Eating: I was sleeping?
Drinking: Red creme soda